Effacer

Or erase

The higher I try to climb, the further I slide down. Two steps forward and three steps back. It seems in some twisted way I've been buried under despite my careful planning. Little by little, chipping away at the mountain, a reprieve is all I desire. Empty is how I want my plate, full is the reality. One more day, just pushing through. I suppose sometimes your speed is stuck at slow.

Like the Blinking City Lights

Hours after hours, bouncing back and forth, things moving when we know they aren't. After a bit of thought, everything just rests at okay. Neutral? Still? Silent? Who knows? I just know it's beautiful in its cruelty and simplicity. I know it's sad and pathetic in its grace and magnificence. Too flowery? Maybe that's the way it should be. The night passed without incident though thoughts still rage on and on. It's been another night without sleep and I shouldn't be here.

Se Demander

Or To Wonder

I don't quite know why but it seems things are steadily going downhill. I'm going into another one of my moods again and I don't know how long it'll last this time. Last year I remember it went on for a good 4 months, during which, nothing was achieved and I was seemingly in an inescapable pit.

I don't like this, then again, I don't suppose anyone would.

Short entry today...I might come back to it, I don't know.